Screwed up!! GAH! Looks like I have an affinity with 73! Like oxygen having an affinity with haemoglobin! -.- I lost it after EOYs...
But i will continue to strive and press on!
Its just the EOYs. Not like its the O levels!
=) By a $200,000 peanut..
Monday, October 19, 2009
I just hate people who thinks they are so smart and think that being smart allows them to insult others.
I think nowadays, juniors just dont respect seniors. They are getting pampered, spoilt and being a brat.
They think they are smart. They are rich. They they are able to bully people like us? Bully their seniors?
Same for CCA and council.
Sick of it!
By a $200,000 peanut..
Sunday, October 18, 2009
By a $200,000 peanut..
By a $200,000 peanut..
Thursday, October 15, 2009
PARTY!
By a $200,000 peanut..
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Studying for EOY I made a wise decision already. No time to regret it. I was thinking too much then. Now is to spam study
Friends come and go. Let it be.
By a $200,000 peanut..
Sunday, September 27, 2009
I am very angry. Very confused. I don't know at who. Not at XG. Not at any one. I think I am angry with myself.
Its like I have a good life. Good friends. Good family. Good environment. Good everthing. But I still feel, well, sad and confused.
What is life about? What exactly are we borned for? Are we borned to follow our usual boring routine of life? Grow up, study, do well, go in society, work, married, have children, retire, die.
Everyone is doing to same things. Can I be different?
Not only that.
Friends are very impt.
Everyone was like memorising the influence friends can give to one during the exams. But they fail to think. Is it true? Are you affected?
I thought. And i realised.
Friends are impt. But they come and go.
New friends come. And following the circumtances and environment, they just go.
Are you afraid to make such good friends and then just separate like that after a few years?
Well, some of you guys think that I am emo-ing. But i think this period of time let me think. Think about life. The real meaning of it.
Friends. The good ones and bad ones. The sincere ones and ones that want you coz you are cool and all..
Bascially, sth happened to me. It isnt very good, but yeah, sth happened to me.
Then i began to think about these things.
I know God is there.
But is praying just a psychological assurance of oneself?
Not that I don't trust him. I trust him, alot.
But you see, praying, i feel, is just trying to assure yourself psychologically and subconsciously.
The rest is up to you and your ability.
What about friends?
There are those who arent really your friends. You follow them coz you wanna be cool. You wanna be in.
But are they your real friends?
There are ones who act that they care, but they dont.
There are ones who treats you like self-assurance-er, which is, they feel sad, look at how pathetic you are, and then become happy. These people mock at your lack of abilities and are not your true friends at all. Worse than those who act like they act, but they dont.
These people laugh at your inabilities. They mock at your results. They just tick you off..
And there are good friends who stand by you when you are down. They motivate you. Even if you wrong them or did sth wrong to them. They will understand you and stick with you, even if you are ignoring them or sth.
For instance, early this year, I kinda disliked Amelia, cause I thought that she, well, backstabbed me on my back b4 the council handover. I hate her then. To the core of my heart.
Then we decided to talk. I realised that these were all the teachers doings.
I misunderstood her, but she stood by me all along.
She talked to me even when i ignored her. Even in front of her friends, when she said hi, i ignored her totally. She was embarassed, but she wanted to patch up with me.
To make the long story short, we patched up and she became one of my closer friends...
Now it's another situation which is totally different. XX is trying to patch up with me, but XX character is damn different from mine. XX is nice, but XX is just irritating at times. XX takes comments seriously and XX is just, different from me. XX tried to patch up with me, but after every try, our relationship just got worse.
I dont really know what to say.. I guess life is unpredictable. Problems are inevitable. Good friends are almost impossible.
- by an emo-ing peanut
About Me
Bennett Choy
St. Hilda's Primary
AHS
nickname:Peanut
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